Lately,hindi na ako ganun ka saya kausap. Feels like all the happiness had drifted away. Siguro,sa mga close kong kaibigan,they would still find me funny in some ways,sa mga nakakausap ko ng madalas,for they can understand me and what I’ve been and I am going through. Hindi na ganoon kadali magtago ng kaibigan,eh. I know people come and go, people change and I must admit na hindi lahat ng tao,mapi-please ko.
Hindi ko alam,feels like I am being betrayed? I know my friends,alam ko kung kailan na nila hindi “feel” yung tao dahil naisheshare nila yun sa akin. Pero I cannot obviously figure out what they’re up to. Malakas din naman ako makaramdam,pero nari-relieve or nakakampante lang ako if something wrong is being said to me directly or frankly. Para naman alam ko,diba? Hindi ko kasi minsan iniinda yung sakit na kaakibat nung maririnig ko,ang iniisip ko kung ano yung magiging resulta kung babaguhin ko man kung ano yung mali.
I know I have been a good friend,not that good na mala-Santino, kumbaga alam ko kung ano yung mas makakabuti or nakakabuti kaya maayos ang pakikitungo ko sakanila. Pero wala. Hindi ko naman ineexpect na same treatment,pero yung makaramdam man lang sila? That’ll be a big help for me to know things that needs to be fixed,changed,or whatever.
Hindi ko alam if they’re still my friends,or friends lang ata pag kasama ko sila.
But I’m still thankful to those who have seen my worth as a friend,atleast I know someone or somebody can still appreciate me. Hay, just let me have time to unwind and think things up.
Change? Sounds interesting.
Kung magbago kaya ako,anong mangyayari?..