Hi. Here I am,again.
About to state nonsense rants about anything.
But actually,i’m gonna post something that may (?) clear some things.
I’ve re-read my previous blogposts,and some of them or actually most of them, were a complete pile of shit.
First,wala na talagang kwenta ‘tong blog ko. Nothing that I post makes sense,or it does,somehow. Pero my point here is,puro tungkol na lang sa friends,trust issues, mga mala “hopeless romantic” kong posts, supposed to be “change for the better” which is obviously hindi ko naman nagagawa or magawa, or talagang hindi ko lang kaya gawin kasi ewan ko. If you were reading at my blog for the previous months, then wow,lucky for you hindi ka pa namatay sa kacornyhan at ka-walang kwenta-han.
Second. I post what I feel at that exact moment kaya halos puro rants and bullshits andito. Kapag malungkot,tumblr. Kapag may nangyari,tumblr. Wala naman kasi akong mapaglabasan ng nararamdaman, lalo na ngayon… well i’ll explain that later. I’m not that typical teenager na kapag malungkot,magkukulong sa kwarto (dahil wala akong kwarto) or would eventually go out and do things to re-direct their attention because I certainly cannot do those. Taong bahay here. And my parents are too strict to let us do what we want even tho my bro’s 20 and I am 18. So let’s just cut it there.
Third, I would like to apologize for the immaturity of my new posts. Yung dalawa kong posts which consists of: Rants with explicit words and second,yung ma-drama. I don’t really know how to express my feelings,actually. Itong tumblr lang yung napagbubuntungan ko lagi. Kaya bigla bigla akong napapa-post ng ganung kadramahan at kawalanghiyaan. My apologies to the people who read those. Specifically to this one person.
Hey,i’ve got something for you. Hindi ‘to drama,or maybe sort of like that pero i’ll try my best to not make it as emotional as possible. And you told me that I deserve to say or even atleast express what I felt that time,and you said that you’ll accept them.
Nah. Just kidding. Wouldn’t want to stress you out either. Thanks lang,gusto ko lang magpasalamat lang talaga sayo for everything. I know and I am completely aware I am acting way beyond what is right and must, wala naman talaga akong karapatan to act or even feel this way. Sorry for that. I am really trying to partly forget about what happened, and I suggest you should,too. And hey, if you feel like cutting me out of your life, that’s fine, just let me know, ‘di sa drama, pero if that would settle out things for the better, then why not. I hope you can read this. And, bakit ka pala nag chat nung nakaraan and then suddenly hindi ka naman nagreply? It may turn out sayo na ang big deal nanaman for me, pero hindi naman. It bothered me for a while tho,kasi na curious ako. Other than that,wala na. And yeah, i guess that’s all. Dito ko na lang sinabi sayo,ayoko lang sa chat, it may be marked as “seen” lang. Thank you.
Back to my purpose.
I may not be posting anything after this. Masyado na akong ma-drama,eh. Siguro i’ll be back after a month,a year, or maybe not at all. Who knows.